i love keeping busy but most days i feel like such a mommy and not a sexy mommy like i once dreamed i would be. jake is lucky if i actually change from my pajamas into my workout clothes! this is seriously terrible and i need to get on a better routine during my days. every morning i set my alarm to get up at 5am to "try" and get to the gym, i start work at 7 and work till about 3 and during that time i am multi-tasking up the wazooo. ((laundry, nursing, entertaining, cleaning, etc)) the life of a mom = never a dull moment. yesterday the only moments that i had to myself was the 10 minutes that i had while i was in the shower until jake came in to tell me B had been SCREAMING and he didnt know what was wrong with her. this girl loves her momma! which i adore but i need a break every once and a while.
no one tells you your life is going to be consumed with your baby once they are born and that all your hopes, dreams and goals are pretty much out the window.
**in no way do i mean this in a bad way! just realizing my day to day things are not going to always go as planned...i absolutely love being a mom and would not change it for anything**
i have had this goal of being a "skinny" mom after seriously adding on the poundage during pregnancy. i am in no way ashamed of it either...i was happy to be able to have an excuse to indulge a little more than i ever have in my life. however, now i am paying for it when i am trying to get my body back together. everyone told me, "do not stress...you are going to nurse, the weight will literally just fall off!" i dont know what those girls are talking about because seriously they are blessed...it doesnt fall off for me, in fact my body seems to have detachment issues with it or something. i have bought/read everything under the sun to help and i am finally just going to face the music- i will continue to eat healthy and workout but i am not going to weigh myself again until i am done nursing B...it puts un-needed stress on me and i need to just be happy with how i am NOW.
i am going to start making a more conscience effort to get ready every day. change from my daily PJ get up or workout attire into something my hubs will think is top notch!
i am so blessed to have the cutest/sweetest lil chubby baby...i seriously cant get enough of her! being a mom is the best thing in the world! it is not always easy, i have learned but it is truly so rewarding. i see my life blessed so much more every day because of her. being a mom comes with many gifts, 1 being a mothers intuition. follow your hearts moms....NOT everyone out there knows more than you. being a new mom, i am grateful that i have stuck to the feelings that i have had about certain things. i am grateful for advice i have received but in the end it is my decision and i am always so happy when i know that my feelings were right. ((not to be a "know it all"- but to have that guidance from the spirit and knowing i am doing something right))
i already feel like i have written a novel...i think this means i should blog a lil more, to write a lil less! i just want to share some fun lil mile stones of B with you and photos as well.
3-4 months!
Brighton can roll over from back to tummy, and tummy to back
Brighton is super shy but loves to smile and meet new people!
Brighton has slept through the night once
Brighton loves toys and using her hands
Brighton is super flexible and can put her toes in her mouth!
Brighton loves to have conversations. she literally will talk your ear off in gibberish!
Brighton hates rice cereal with a passion but is a #1 fan of momma milk but only from the boob- not a bottle! she rather starve then eat from anything else.
Brighton loves to play in the water...i am getting so excited to take her to the beach in a couple weeks!
Brighton is going to be a lil blondie like her daddy was! She is lacking a lot of hair at this point and we refer to the hair she does have as a "toupee" it will grow...soonish.
Brighton has the biggest blue eyes
Brighton has the sweetest lil spirit and brings so much love into our home!
Your girl is so cute! It is really nice to know I am not alone in feelings that I am having. Keep up the good work mama:)
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